i told you i would try

i tried and all you did was push me away, i put out my hand and you broke it, i came to comfort you and you went aside and did something that was regretted. i never try for anything, but for you i'd do anything, that was all a mistake, why try when the other just tests your limits, you never even did anything to help what we had. you say you sacrificed more then i was worth well i didn't see anything, all you caused me was pain but i pushed all that aside just to see your face because that made my day, no week, no not even that, you made my life just enough to where it felt perfect. even though i went to do hurting work every day it didn't matter, i had you and that's all i could ever ask for, i fell i love with everything about you, if i were able to say everything i loved about you it would take hours, but now i lost you, lost the feeling of love, lost my meaning of life, all i have now is a thing i don't want.....myself, why have something you don't deserve. you say you didn't know to jump or not, well i don't know to let go or not, you may have a few friends who can help, i don't. i might not understand how you feel but you'll never understand how i feel, to be left with everything but nothing at all, to have been taught everything you needed to and not know how to use it. i'm sorry i wasn't enough for you, i really wish i was. today i had a lesson about letting go of things and how hard it is, well i've  held what we had and every night it haunts me, but no more, i've let go as i know you have. i'll just continue my life as it was before. just like a unpaid intern, if you ever need anything    i'll be there, if i need anything don't bother. i told you i would try, i guess trying isn't good enough.......................this only a section of what i could explain but it's all i was able to say. nothing more then sorry