cool dude

hahaha awesome, i didnt know i could get on this anymore. anyway the reason i got on this is because i want to let you to know i have nothing against you, but for some reason you still have something against me and your the one who ended what we had. i dont know i just thought it was weird. i hope to see you at tommys party but thats all up to you, do know i want to work all this out with you, and just to let you know the last time i blogged i was a little moody because thats when i.... uumm... well thats when i still loved you but dont worry thats out of the equation. my head is clear and mind is set on good so dont think if you do anything itll end in disaster. so this is most likely going to be blog i do for a few months or at all so yeah, but i dout you even look at this thing anymore, ive said that before and i was wrong so i have no idea what youll do. but i guess thats the best part about life, that you dont know whatll happen next :), so i guess thats all, take what you will and leave what you want, you know where to find me

i told you i would try

i tried and all you did was push me away, i put out my hand and you broke it, i came to comfort you and you went aside and did something that was regretted. i never try for anything, but for you i'd do anything, that was all a mistake, why try when the other just tests your limits, you never even did anything to help what we had. you say you sacrificed more then i was worth well i didn't see anything, all you caused me was pain but i pushed all that aside just to see your face because that made my day, no week, no not even that, you made my life just enough to where it felt perfect. even though i went to do hurting work every day it didn't matter, i had you and that's all i could ever ask for, i fell i love with everything about you, if i were able to say everything i loved about you it would take hours, but now i lost you, lost the feeling of love, lost my meaning of life, all i have now is a thing i don't want.....myself, why have something you don't deserve. you say you didn't know to jump or not, well i don't know to let go or not, you may have a few friends who can help, i don't. i might not understand how you feel but you'll never understand how i feel, to be left with everything but nothing at all, to have been taught everything you needed to and not know how to use it. i'm sorry i wasn't enough for you, i really wish i was. today i had a lesson about letting go of things and how hard it is, well i've  held what we had and every night it haunts me, but no more, i've let go as i know you have. i'll just continue my life as it was before. just like a unpaid intern, if you ever need anything    i'll be there, if i need anything don't bother. i told you i would try, i guess trying isn't good enough.......................this only a section of what i could explain but it's all i was able to say. nothing more then sorry

up to date

first of all who's mehgan, why do i want to know, because you seem to mention her alot. also what other homecoming are you going to? well anywho my day was good, i finished quite a bit. i finally started school, i'm able to go on my studying spree, i can finish all my work in a week and i'll be done with all high school stuff, but i'm not skipping any grades because that would be dumb of course. so other then that this are getting better for me, i hope they're getting just a little bit better for you, if not you can always talk to me. but you never take my advice so i'm not expecting anything. well gots to go so see you laters

fun stuff

good job on your poems, if your able to you should make alot more, but of course as always only if you want to. so today i go to my dance class, how fun, ballroom dancing is the best. haha anyways the next dance is going to be amazing, oh yeah, i get to go to colony's homecoming, that's going to be fun too, well go to go bye

A new me

sorry how i acted, i was still in shock about what happened, but it's all good now, i need to talk to you some time about a plan i have. don't worry it has no bad affects. anyways i'm still holdding you up to your word, i best be treated as a brother, oh yeah that reminds me, i'm sorry about your sister i hope it's really just nothing but you never know. i have one question/request to tell me how long it took you to start reading my blog again, anyways again......umm i can't say what i usually say so i have to come up with something different so it  might be a few days, well see ya

good bye and fair well

i've put alot of thought in to this and well you made me extremely happy at first, but now that that's over all you do to me is make me weak and i can't have that, you are the first person i ever fell in love with and the best mistake i've ever made, i hope what you have with nate works out, i dout it but that's not for me to say, this blog is just a memory of you and what we had and i don't want what we had. i've found someone else, kind of fast i'd say but so have you, so i guess we're even. so i have one last gift for you and then i don't plan on talking to you again, not to be mean i just don't want any flash backs. good bye and fair well. i won't be blogging again                                                            
                                    
 for a while at least

busy busy

wow, last month was busy. this all that happend, i finished two houses a grauge feel in love and had my heart broken, that more then i've ever done before, and it's the first for all of them, but that's life and you just have to deal with what they throw at you. that's why life sucks and is the best thing ever. that's it

why have a title when you can have a smily face :)

the reason i didn't blog before is that my computer was lost and well now it's found, and haha why did sam think it was so weird that you've never kissed anyone, neither have i, i was never able to tell you that before because we were always talking about you, and as i've said before you being ''beautiful'' is not only of looks it's of your personality and well just who you are and you most defiantly are. and that's all i have to say because my arms hurt to type because i did a bunch of stuff at mutual and you wouldn't because you didn't go.......looser. haha just kidding, of course. goody bye you people persons

almost

today i almost did nothing all day, the one thing that i did is i watched a movie at the matsu cinema. scary movies are not scary at all, Don't be afraid of the dark, it was better then insidious by far but still it was good i guess, and yes i always have to guess. i am still in need to know how to put music on this blog, right now it's so boring, even i  fall asleep reading it, i probably just need to put a naked mole rat pic in some random place every now and then. well that's just me always trying to make my blog better....well and life for that matter but it's alright if something goes wrong every now...and....then...did i just say this a second ago *reads back* well i guess i just repeat things. anyway that's all i have to say on my own public journal. you best know that's all i got!!! haha bye

bishops store house

well today i went to the canary to help out from 9 to 6 then i had to deliver all the orders, but i drove the whole time so it was kind of fun, i wanted to go to seminary but i wasn't able to, sorry. i was going to give you another quarter but i guess that'll have to wait till next time. the store house defiantly brings back memories, but those are gone now so just fun times. guess what i'm going to learn in school this year.......you'll find out. that's all i have to say i guess. goody bye for now dudes

Thanks for the memories

thanks for all you've done, i chose you carefully and although it didn't work out how i hoped i learnd a good lesson. i will never forget you and what you've done for me, you say you've given my love back, well you did....just not all of it, you will always have a piece of my heart, just not the part i was hopping to share with you. i'm ok with just being a brother to you, just please don't denigh me that. you say you trust to easy, that's not true, you just let go to easy, that's the mistake. i hope you find a better guy then me because i don't want this happening to you again. i blame myself for everything that happened so i will be here to pay an endless det waiting forever to be repaid, need anything at all and i will be here to help you, i just have one last question, but that'll have to wait. with this message i leave a request of endless friendship and i take back my heart.....and apparently my hat also, you know you didn't have to give that back, but you did and that's that. so i leave this to you and only you Magen Sophia Jefferey Rose Lynn Kyle Jo Anthony Vin Zant or i could use your real name but that's no fun

it was my fault

I'm sorry i couldn't help you before that happened, you never even told me anything before, i'm still here i can still help you when your down, i want to always be there for you, but as you know it's up to you if you except or not. to me nothing's changed but i know to you everything has, if a relationship is to much for you then of course we could just be friends, even though we were anyway, just good friends. and what friend was it that hurt your other friend. magen know that i do care about all that you have to say or do, i'm extremely sorry for makeing you feel this way, even if it wasn't me directly i still led you to what happened. i know you most likely won't ever check my blog but i will blog the same amount as i did before only because i still feel the same as i did before. and i have more to say but you most likely won't read it anyway so this is all i have to say to you and only you, talk to you later magen

your still the lucky one

at least you are public schooled being home schooled, you have nothing to do, no friends to talk to, nothing but clean or work, so i'd gladly switch places. and i am not excited about seminary, all it is is earlier to wake up, but i do get to see friends so it's not that bad. anyway today was goodish, i had 1 hour of sleep then ran some where between 6 and 10 miles then went to seminary then went home and worked till 7 pm. doesn't that sound fun, haha totally. and ''te quiero'' is Spanish just to let you know, and i'm sorry school is so tiring for you, if i could help i would, if i'm able to in any way just tell me. and that's all i have to say on my own public journal, see ya dudes

first times

haha for once i have nothing to say for my day, it was decent i guess, but nothing exciting really happened, well this is a short dang post, the main reason i post this one is so i could say "te quiero magen" haha huh will you find out what that means, if you do you should know it's true, and only for you, but that's all i have today on my own public journal, peace out, haha first time useing that one

just mean shoes

flipping flops, i just found out that that i won't be starting school until the 13th at least, darn. haha anyway life's good.....at the moment, things always change so i can't expect for it to stay like this.  yes i finally got my cast/brace for my hand, i'm not sure what you'd consider it but it is now off and i can continue my piano playing, keyboard typing, practically my good old life i had before it broke, yep i'm just that bad at life haha, well today was good not so great, but it wasn't bad so it's all good. finally i will end this post i know you've been waiting for the ending, you now because i'm so boring. haha so that's all i be giving you people today on my own public journal. ;)  :)  :p

school

well for most people school just started today but for me i stayed home, haha the awesomeness of homeschooling, kinda anyway, but this only for half the year, and don't think that i won't be in any of your classes because i can request some of witch you are in, but anyway i'm going to be in every class at least 3 grades ahead, but that will change when i go public schooled, so i hope it's fun. it most likely will but hope is never a bad thing to do. haha and magen what up with the blogging a major amount then not doing anything at all for around a week, i just thought that was interesting, yup that's all i have for you today on my own public journal. :)

today was fun

so today i went to magens ward for church and it ends up that she had a talk and she likes to stay up next to the pottem or whatever it's called haha, so i had to sit next to her family and well tash is not very nice and kept hitting me in the head every time she past me witch was like 6 times (just to let you know). haha but anyway that was kind of fun, so sense i went to her ward i was at the church from 10:55 all the way to 7:40 haha doesn't that sound fun.........well it wasn't. but in the end it was all worth it because i got to sit next to magen, even though she was sleeping the whole dang time, but yeah today was fun, and that's all i have to say today on my own public journal :)

strong words

A few weeks ago i thought "hate" was one of the only strong words, but recently that changed. I found.....well i guess she found me but she changed my way of thinking about....well every thing, that's when love came into one of the strong words. i've always wondered what love feels like, and after a while of talking to her and being around her i think if love is better then this then i understand why people always say being in love is the best feeling in the world because this already is the best feeling in the world.

thanks to you

today was perfect, well just a big part was.  i've been working all day then i found out that i could call magen (instant great day), i found out time goes by really fast when talking to you, then i was able to take my cast off for an hour, that made my day amazing, then i got to talk to you again, oh yeah and... i looked at your blog before you said not to, i feel a lot for you too, i will explain everything to you at the dance, i have more then you think to talk about, but only if you want to talk about it. all this together made my day simply perfect all thanks to you magen, and that all i have to say.....to you and only you.

sorry about that

i am so sorry for not blogging recently, i've tried but i've been really really busy. and why haven't you been blogging magen, i only ask because i love to read what you have to write. another thing is you never told me that it was kyles birthday, i could have at least said happy birthday, and by the way i have not forgotten your gift, i'm still looking for it, it's not as easy as it sounds, well anyway you may not have known why you said i stole your heart but i meant it when i said you stole mine, i have never felt this way before for anybody, i hope you realize that. and that's it on my own public journal

no, darn, dang

i wasn't able to blog yesterday, got a new cast, super late last night. so i'll make up for it today. umm today was fun all except i didn't go to church. that would have made my day a little bit better, but i wasn't able to call a person today, that would've made today one of my perfect days but i guess i have to deal with the fact it wasn't, and that's my day, just a little shortened, haha ok well that's all i got on my own public journal,that's all folks

rafting rocks

i've been rafting all week, it was fun all but the first day, i was on a lake rowing against 40mph winds and waves that were going against us, that was dang hard. but don't worry, i survived. on the second day i ran into class 4 rapids, now that was fun, there was rocks everywhere and the water was flowing fast with the boat making it dang hard to control, but that's only some of what was fun but i'm in a hurry so it was fun and took forever, so i guess that's it for today on my own public journal. talk to you tomorrow

ta ta for now

well i'm off to go on the rafting trip, don't worry i'll share all the awesome and weird moments to you when i get back, but i got to go now so see you peoples later on my own public journal, haha t.t.f.n.

bad days

well if your having a bad day don't have to post if you don't want to, i just like it when i can read something that you wrote. but hey, you just need to feel better, i don't want to get in the way of your happiness so ignore me if you need to or want to that's up to you, well feel better and don't get depressed again, i like to be there for you and i can't this week i'm going to be gone, but you'll do what you want to do just please pick the right one. :)

...better then most..

today so was, it totally was, no doubt about it, what was it you ask..........it was nothing that affects you so leave me alone, haha well it's 4:20 and i have to wake up at 8 so won't this be fun. yeah well for some reason i've been blogging more then you, why is that, huh well that just means i win, haha brilliant. today was....... because i finally finished packing and setting up for the rafting trip, yay ya haha well that's new, well i have to sleep so sorry for the short post. that's all i have to say today on my own public journal, see ya later diggety dawgs

oh the wonderfulness of buffets

well i had the best dinner ever, i went to golden corral and tried to eat it all but of course i was not able to. darn my belly, haha well i also met some cool people in Anchorage, some relatives of my interesting neighbors. so i didn't really do a lot today but tomorrow's going to be busy busy, i have to do a lot of things about the rafting trip, but it'll be fun so it's all worth it other then the fact i will most likely not have service so i won't be able to keep you guys up dated, but if i do you know who i'll talk to first, huh  yeah some random person, well that's all i have to say today on my own public journal. blog you later peeps. haha

how could you forget your day

well it's good you remembered when i told you, so today was good, Magen got her braces taken off, that's good, can't wait till i get mine put on. it might be awhile but it's going to be worth it. today was simple i just went to three bears, went on a few bike rides, went to work and went down a big hill with even more tricycles. haha doesn't that sound like fun, well it was. tomorrow's going to be fun, i have to wake up at 6 for a C. P. R. class and a first aid class, and that's in 3 and a half hours but i'll be fine. so that's my day on my own public journal, goody bye blog you tomorrow.

how time goes by when thinking of you

i say good bye on the phone thinking wow i need to go to bed, then you come to mind, (not a good thing when you have to wake up early the next day) me thinking all the good things about you, it's three hours later that i realized i couldn't name them all and that you are the best thing that's ever happened to me and hoping that nothing ever changes between us, but that's unpredictable so i'll take it as it comes

you will lose it again

just to say to all those weirdos you will lose your electronic device again, and my day was the best this week, it was jam packed with AWESOME. haha i did nothing but crash into walls with tricycles and plan a going to be great rafting trip and playing one of the best board games ever. i forgot what it's called but that's fine. i did alot of other things but it would take way to long to explain why i did those dumb things, so bye, blog you tomorrow :)

how could i forget today

oh shoot, i almost forgot to post today. that would have gotten me mad tomorrow, huh well today, well yesterday if you want me to be super specific because it's 2:30 was a good (not so great) day. the reasons for it not being amazing is i woke up having to clean, then i had to start a fire (witch we found out afterwards that a large amount of gasoline had been pored on it, oh by the way ''it'' is a very big dresser thingy) so when i touched a match to it. i saw fire so i turned around and the fire had hit the gas and blow up and pushed me with amazing force so i flew a few feet, but don't worry i landed on my feet and my hair's not burnt, so that was fun but it made my day a little worse because my life flashed before my eyes, i found out that my life has been a lot more exciting recently because some random person has been there. well any who i went on a biking trip to see if i had to work even more but we didn't so the bike ride was pointless but it was a good exercise, so it wasn't a wasted trip we went down to the new three bears and got a bunch of candy and stuff then i spent the night at Codys house and here i am, writing stuff about my day on my own public journal, and now it's 3:05, typing with only one hand is horrible, but i guess i have to get used to that, well good day to the rest of you people who read blogs, *whispers to self* weirdos

Not enough

Today was fantastic, well at the end anyway. I went to an amazing persons house for a birthday party and it went pretty dang well, her friends were a little distracting but in the end it was all worth it, i wasn't able to get her a present because it was all on short notice but i'll find something to make her happy, oh and by the way ''her'' is Magen, and yes you are amazing, well and fun, magnificent and beautiful but that's all beside the point. haha that's all for today. sorry i wrote so little.

i will and am

i will post everyday i am going to post everyday. you've made it a challenge and i will exceed a go beyond what i thought i would (witch was only a post a week by the way). i will try to post all the good moments in my life witch come more frequently sense an amazing person has entered  my life. plus your probably the only one reading this unless i become famous and they look up every thing about me like a stalker. but that's besides the point. haha as you know

highlight of my week

well i didn't expect today to be exciting at all, but that's when i was given a dang cool looking cast, it's red, yep that's right I'm awesome......... haha just kidding. then i found out i was able to go to a movie with some awesome friends, that was pretty exciting. it was then that i met my coolyest friends and some of their friends, but best of all Magen, most if not all of you should know her because that's how you got contact with this blog, anyway we watched harry potter 7 part 2, and that movie was amazing not only because of the movie but because of the person i was with, then i went to walmart getting a bunch of good food, yum. then i got home finding that rebecca is still sad when promised me that she wasn't, and she blames it on me, i thought i've said i'm sorry enough, i say because i mean it not just because i can. i know not really anybody will read this but it's true. haha good day to you all.

my first post

well i found this website from an awesome person that i only met a week ago, and well she's one of the most exciting, wait no, she is the most exciting person I've ever met, this amazing persons name is Magen Vin Zant, she is wonderful, and well every good word to call a person, she's most likely reading this so now you know some of what you are, i couldn't write everything because my hands broken and you made me hurry.